ive lived this journey. I remember first coming to omf when I was, say, 14-15 years old. by that time we were n the second forum, and the site had just hit its stride. One Manga introduced me to manga, but more then that, it introduced me to some people I still to this day consider some of the best friends ive ever had. see, when I was young, a relative terms for a 23 year old, I didn't have many friends. I had just got done with my first year of high school, and it was basically the worst experience one can have in high school period. I was a broken shell of a person who, beyond all else, found a little comfort in the fact that I had found SOMEWHERE where I had fit in. .it didn't happen right away, obviously, as when you have those kinds of experiences in life it can really mess you up inside. for a while I was just a lurker on the main forums. id pop up every now and then to say a few funny words, partake in the conversation a little bit. but back then, I was literally just an ant lost in a raging storm of people. but a few kind souls took me in, made me feel like I belonged here, and so for a few years things were really good. I was apart of the social group role-players, and at one point I knew everyone there was to know among that group of people. lol built I was still just a stupid kid, and like all stupid kids I made mistakes. fell in love. fucked it up.
eventually the second incarnation of omf went down, and all those people that were once my best friends eventually drifted apart, which wasn't my fault, but you know. kids are dumb, and I felt like it was. this left me in a place where I was jaded from the thought of ever making a new group of friends. but you know what? I was wrong. what I did was move on, and began debating as a form of releasing the pent up frustration inside from both the experience and bad shit going on in my home ,life. at first I wasn't very good at it at all. I was a novice, someone who had potential,, but had not yet refined that talent into anything noteworthy. and through my debate, I made a ton of new friends. sure, a lot of enemies as well, but I surprise' that's just what happens when you put yourself out there like that. but still, I was happy, and eventually got to the point where I wanted t give something back to the site for everything it had done for me over the years. see, one of my best friends, he went by the name of moogle buddy, started the omf battle arena. and dit was so col I thought to myself: what will be ,my legacy here? what have I done for omf? so at the time, people had started talk of a YouTube channel, and being a person of exceptional personality, and if I might add, marginal good looks, I gave it a shot.
I discovered through my video making that I had a mild form of autism that kept me from making videos the same way other people did, but after a little soul searching, I discovered that I didn't care. i am who i am, and nothing can ever change that, so i felt it best to just live my life to the best of my ability and not worry so much about what the outside world saw. so u continued making videos, and eventually thought that maybe i could even make a career out of it. after all, YouTube is filled with ninety nine percent crap, why couldn't i do it as well? but you know my life was always hard. its always been an uhill battle fr me to stay as positive as i try to, and my home life just continued to get worse and worse. so i was angry, and in a few bad decisions, i ended up getting myself banned twice within the span of two weeks.
you know, that was the first time i had ever even considered a life without omf, you know? i had ben around for so long, i had grown complacent, and assumed that people liked me enough to the point where i could never get banned. coming face to reality, decisions had to be made. i quit the omf YouTube channel, because what good does it do for me to run a channel for a site that i might no longer be apart f? what kind of message would it send for the guy who supposedly cared about this place the most to get banned and then take the channel with him out of spite for being the only one willing to work on it? which of course wasn't true. baka and disasterous had tried to work on it, but I'm the kind of guy who doesn't necessarily work well with others. its not that i didn't want them there, but inevitably they didn't stay on working with me. which is ok, i get it. I'm a pretty intense dude who at the time was more interested in pumping out content then i was at necessarily working to make it great content. it was the retro show for sure. so when i got done with my month long ban, i decided to quit, for multiple reasons, many f them ive already talked about, but also because people here had become confused. they thought that i thought that i was a md, which was never my intention. i don't run this place, and I've never had the intention of running it. i like hanging out with people way to much and attempting t do that while also having a place of authority is, well, hard. I've seen it happen. DEW was once a prominent poster here, but once he became a mod people began treating him differently, i never wanted that. ii didn't want people to think that i was better then them or that i thought i was better then them or that, just because i ran the channel, that meant i had a bigger say in things around here then they did. of course i made a video that said none of these things, because that's none of YouTube business. and i didn't want people to think that i was giving u because i was afraid of getting banned. also, at that point, like i said, i had intended t make a career out of YouTube, and so i gave up the channel without so much as a second thought about it.
with a huge weight lifted off my shoulder, i continued on posting here, but now not as regualarly because i was attempting to make my own shit work out. but recently its come to my attention that, to actually make it on youtube is actually a lot harder then i ever had anticipated. when i gave u the channel, not a lot of people here followed me. which is fine, i don't blame them. ater all, I'm the kind of guy who always speaks his mind regardless of if its what people want to hear. which IS for the greater good, but at the same time, really alienates me from people at times. but eventually, what with what's going on on youtube at the moment, i gave it up. trying to make it my carrier that is. i might still post there from time to time when i have something good for people, but as of right now i am officially retired.. i cant compete with those big names out there who are already established in a world where daily content ins necessary to compete being a one man show. its just not in me. its a lot of hard work. s lost, a few weeks ago, i finally quit smoking weed. and to my surprise, once again ive leveled up. now the game plan is to get my art to the point where people will take me more seriously as an artist, and, maybe bring back dragonball in the process. and that's all there is for now. since this place has an original manga section, i never had any intention f posting it anywhere but here, and recently, I've become much more active again in my forum life.
thank you for the incredible ride omf. i wouldn't honestly change a moment of it. you guys have been my rock for years, and id be proud to think that maybe I've done the same for some of you.
Edited by retroluffy13, 19 December 2016 - 09:11 AM.