Your replies confirmed my suspicion: you’re all not giving your 100% in this one poetry contest.
You’re too worried of botching this very first OMF contest you’re hosting, after taking up the mantle from @Oben and you played it safe, with standard rhymes, as opposed to free verses in your writings on the other subforum. You want to make sure to play it slick as the promising upstart (which is a fact), but turned out trading freedom of thoughts to security for your newfound reputation.
Your heart is in the right place, but your disillusionment is shown, if subtle, in your poem. You’re seeing the shadow of your former self (those brilliant GFXs and poems as well as the awards associated to them shall serve as your testament). You’re refusing to give in to the pressure of living up to your past glory, but subconsciously hampering yourself in the process, almost as if half-assing it.
You’re eagerly and sincerely willing to help others flourish in this forum from the start, in DOTA/LoL you’d be the exemplar roaming support, without a doubt. The down side to that, however, you’re holding yourself back from drawing out your full potentials, either due to reluctance to overshine others, or complacency (subconscious or otherwise) about your works in general.
“Why the fuck you care so much about my work, bitch? Why this unwarranted cringefest of criticisms?”
I saw myself in the early, middle, and late stage of being an OMF member from the three of you, respectively. That’s why.
Have some care in your craft, have some pride in your poetry. Fuck what everybody say.
Shitslingers gonna shitsling. Keep on writing.